Tuhan memang satu, kita yang tak sama.. haruskah aku lantas pergi krn iman yang berbeda? but i just cant stop lovin' you..just you know :')

9-12-12
hari ini aku jd pager ayu di nikahannya om abi. nah istrinya om abi itu org bandung. nah jd td semua keluarga dr kedua belah pihak kumpul dan ijab, resepsi pernikahan om abi. nah td pas nerima tamu, kan pasangan2 tuh sama pager bagus, di situ awalnya aku dapet partner om om-_- tp shift selanjutnya aku dapet partner sebaya kaya aku. aku gatau namanya siapa. tp dr dia hari ini i have learned a big lesson for life and for my love journey. jd dia itu baaik banget. mukanya sih biasa aja. dibilang lumayan sih iya tp kl ganteng sih ngga. tp attitudenya itu paraah gentle parah deh pokoknya. baru pertama kali ini ketemu orang kaya gitu.
gini deh, dia ga pernah kenal sama aku. liat aja blm pernah. yaiyaw secara dia tinggal di bandung. nah di situ td pas aku berdiri berdua sama dia, kan cape tuh trs dia bilang "ntar ya" aku kirain ngapain. ternyata ambil kursi. nah setelah liat dia ambil kursi, aku jg mau ambil kursi, tp dia langsung ke tempat kursi2 ngambilin aku padahal aku ga minta sama sekali. td dia jg ngasih tissue ke mba yaya padahal mba yaya ngga minta tissue tiba2 dia ngambilin juga. gila baik banget ga sih tu. attitude ngalahin muka banget ya ternyata.
baru bener2 sadar kali ini. big lesson deh pokoknya. ternyata effect attitude 100% lbh ampuh drpd kemenarikan fisik. keren keren keren. Thank God. makasih banget udh kasih petunjuk dan pelajaran for my journey so i wish and yeah i think i must and its a must follow this boy. awh okay, jd aku harus baik sama semua org blm kenal kek udh kenal kek. hrs kasih bantuan ga boleh gengsi tp tetep kalem. lebih tepatnya nawarin bantuan. dan gausah jutek atau sok jutek. cewe jutek ngga cool sama sekali meen. i must change this thing and take out from ma life. aku hrs jd kaya cowo jd tu, murah senyum, selalu nawarin bantuan, gausah gengsi, dan keep calm. ga ada salahnya ngasih bantuan ke cowo. gausah peduliin cie2. yang penting ke semua org harus kaya begitu. SIP. THANK GOD!

allooo! hmm kayanya hari berlalu cepet banget ya. aku makin tua. dulu waktu kls 6 kayanya memandang anak SMA kayanya wow bgt. dan skrng did you know aku udh mau SMA ._. daan UN udh di dpn mata. just like one step againnn. UN just like sayin' hello at my door. tapi kenapa makin lama aku malah makin males belajar. dan aku ngerasa religiusku malah makinn dan makin menurun.dan aku bukannya tobat tapi malah kaya nambah dosa. iya, dulu awal2 aku semangat bgt, tp lama2 kok jd loyo gini semangatnya (eitss jangan lupa hashtag dulu hyuuk #tidakloyo #ngopoo-_-)*skip* hmm aku merasa malah makin nggak fokus, tambah emosian, tambah sering nggibah. parah deh pokoknya. aku kaya semacam psimist. hiks. Tuhan tolong bantu aku plis. jangan biarin aku masuk jurang kesuraman. bantu aku tuhan. aku mulai melenceng. kl usahaku gini gimana mau masuk sma 3 :' ayooo yaned km bisaa kok bisaa..liat temen2 yang pinter seakan kaya psimist sendiri nih jdnya. temenku pinter2 banget. huh kayanya kok jauuh bgt aku dr mereka.. hmm tp nothing's impossible. tuhan selalu liat setiap jerih payahmu. oke aku harus berjuang. oke aku bisaa! tuhan rangkul aku. kesuksesan cm ada di tangan org yang kerja keras. aku bisa! AKU BISA! YA, AKU BISA :" !

okay, you know from this blog, i ever loved a boy named L. *sorry i'm blurring it* :p hmm yeah almost 3 years i got a crush on him. and i just stay stay and stay on him. never turn around. i dont know but i love him like i never ever love no one before him.

hmm but, in 9th grade there is my senior tht get close to me. yeah he's Adnn risnd. *little blurring :p* we have sufficient time to calling 'honey' each other, give hugs, kisses and loves emoticon. all just going like we r in relationship. but there's nothing between us. actually, i never hope to have a relation more than friend wif him. but all we just like in relationship.

everything is run like we r in relationship meanwhile i still have love feeling to L. i realize karma. so, i try to forget L and try to move for adnn risn. its not as easy as you think.little by little.

but you know, when i reached 65% to forget L. adnn risn leaves me. he starts to judge me everything im not. he judge me a player and all. lol. and i cant hold out, then i leave him. too fast. but tht how we used to be.

meanwhile, there is a rumor tht lindra has been fallin in love with our junior in school. hmm but you know, i just workin like a FBI. lolol investigate as long as i can. and it turn out our junior already got crush on other boy. *glaaaaaaaaaaad* wkwkwk.

take a look, you belong wif me L. i will catch you. i'll make you mine or my name is not yaned. huahahah it will not rain forever you know. in high school. you'll be mine. i hope we united in padmanaba amin!

huy! allooo! ini buat adnn yang super scumbag HA HA HA HA!

 you r so full of shittttt i cant stand!the way you act i just cant comprehend!!
i dont really care wht you think of me! im better off without you anywayyyy i thought it would be hard but im OK HAHA! i dont need you if you r gonna be tht  way cause with me its all-NOTHING.
 im sick of your shit. u r a waste of time! i hate you now! so go away from me! you  r gone so long i can do BETTER.. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!

kenapa ya harus ada bulan october. skip aja kek bulannya. kl ngga, diilangin aja mending. bulan ga guna.

helloooo! yaned here! :D hmm and after a long time, now im a 9th grader! :D now im in 9c class B) im in  a same class with karin and azik :D its miserable to believe tht i just separate with icha, nuha, rahma :' but yea, life must goes on.. althought we r not in a same class but it still euforiaa \:D/ lololol
hmm in 9c, i feel so comfy to absorb the lessons. karin plays a major role.. she always teach me when i dont understand and she never gives up to teach me. she always support me. and very big thank you for you, karin! i cant express in word how i grateful to you <3 {} thank you so much karin!

nextt, i'll talk about nuhaqq. hmm she give me a cool girl figure ._. dia itu bisa keren tanpa hrs berpenampilah kaya tante-tante ._. and thts inspiring me. dan dia itu gaul, update, tp tetep rajin ngikutin pelajaran dan she's intelect * :x ohh i wish nuha doesnt read this bcause i swear she will have a very biggg heaaadd x_x =)) lololol jk* dan dia bkn tipe cewe kalem, pemalu.. dia itu.. TOTALLY CRAZY AND I LIKE THT!!!! =DD Dan skrng aku ngga putus asa, ternyata cewe ngga kalem atau pemalu jg bs kok gaul&dipandang cantik :D qiqiqiiqiqqii soalnya tdnya aku putus asa-,- kirain kl cewe ga kalem tu ga akan disukai cowo dan akan selalu freak di mata cowo. tp ternyata ngga kok. and nuha prove it! :D and for the next, i'll prove it! :D

tp intinya i love all the member of euforiaaa *rada ga nyambung gapapa deh* qiqiqiiqi LOVE YAAAAAAAA MY GURLSSSSS XOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXO

ehr :& im too foolish. i was saving you but you were killing me 3-|

i miss all the time we used to be, i miss the old you, i miss the sweetest you, i miss your foolish behaavior, i miss how the wy you talk to me, i miss how the way you txt me, but it was chanage and novody can bring it back to m. i lost all abouot you, i lost the sweetest you. but yea wont face it but i must accept the reaality tht you were change and i lost the sweetest you. u r so different now. idk how the time change urself. its too soon.