allooo! hmm kayanya hari berlalu cepet banget ya. aku makin tua. dulu waktu kls 6 kayanya memandang anak SMA kayanya wow bgt. dan skrng did you know aku udh mau SMA ._. daan UN udh di dpn mata. just like one step againnn. UN just like sayin' hello at my door. tapi kenapa makin lama aku malah makin males belajar. dan aku ngerasa religiusku malah makinn dan makin menurun.dan aku bukannya tobat tapi malah kaya nambah dosa. iya, dulu awal2 aku semangat bgt, tp lama2 kok jd loyo gini semangatnya (eitss jangan lupa hashtag dulu hyuuk #tidakloyo #ngopoo-_-)*skip* hmm aku merasa malah makin nggak fokus, tambah emosian, tambah sering nggibah. parah deh pokoknya. aku kaya semacam psimist. hiks. Tuhan tolong bantu aku plis. jangan biarin aku masuk jurang kesuraman. bantu aku tuhan. aku mulai melenceng. kl usahaku gini gimana mau masuk sma 3 :' ayooo yaned km bisaa kok bisaa..liat temen2 yang pinter seakan kaya psimist sendiri nih jdnya. temenku pinter2 banget. huh kayanya kok jauuh bgt aku dr mereka.. hmm tp nothing's impossible. tuhan selalu liat setiap jerih payahmu. oke aku harus berjuang. oke aku bisaa! tuhan rangkul aku. kesuksesan cm ada di tangan org yang kerja keras. aku bisa! AKU BISA! YA, AKU BISA :" !

okay, you know from this blog, i ever loved a boy named L. *sorry i'm blurring it* :p hmm yeah almost 3 years i got a crush on him. and i just stay stay and stay on him. never turn around. i dont know but i love him like i never ever love no one before him.

hmm but, in 9th grade there is my senior tht get close to me. yeah he's Adnn risnd. *little blurring :p* we have sufficient time to calling 'honey' each other, give hugs, kisses and loves emoticon. all just going like we r in relationship. but there's nothing between us. actually, i never hope to have a relation more than friend wif him. but all we just like in relationship.

everything is run like we r in relationship meanwhile i still have love feeling to L. i realize karma. so, i try to forget L and try to move for adnn risn. its not as easy as you think.little by little.

but you know, when i reached 65% to forget L. adnn risn leaves me. he starts to judge me everything im not. he judge me a player and all. lol. and i cant hold out, then i leave him. too fast. but tht how we used to be.

meanwhile, there is a rumor tht lindra has been fallin in love with our junior in school. hmm but you know, i just workin like a FBI. lolol investigate as long as i can. and it turn out our junior already got crush on other boy. *glaaaaaaaaaaad* wkwkwk.

take a look, you belong wif me L. i will catch you. i'll make you mine or my name is not yaned. huahahah it will not rain forever you know. in high school. you'll be mine. i hope we united in padmanaba amin!

huy! allooo! ini buat adnn yang super scumbag HA HA HA HA!

 you r so full of shittttt i cant stand!the way you act i just cant comprehend!!
i dont really care wht you think of me! im better off without you anywayyyy i thought it would be hard but im OK HAHA! i dont need you if you r gonna be tht  way cause with me its all-NOTHING.
 im sick of your shit. u r a waste of time! i hate you now! so go away from me! you  r gone so long i can do BETTER.. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!

kenapa ya harus ada bulan october. skip aja kek bulannya. kl ngga, diilangin aja mending. bulan ga guna.