i dont know what am i feeling about. i just feel like my best friend is no longer best friend.
feel like sometimes she tries to betray me. i mean dia diem2 suka gerilya. misal nih kl aku fitness. dia tanya2 tentang aku fitness ngga, dia bilang dia ngga ngapa2in nanya begitu terus tapi ternyata diem2 dia jg fitness tp gamau bilang. i feel like i smell bau jahat dr my bestfriend. mungkin.. mungkin dia baik tp dia sukanya in competition secara perlahan sama temennya sendiri. i feel like krn i know dia terobsesi banget untuk jadi sempurna, dan dia bakal lakuin apapun biar keliatan sempurna. biar semua orang liat dia sempurna, itu karakternya banget. dan semakin ke sini dia semakin menjadi. dan akhir2 ini tambah totally annoying ya sebel aja gitu apa2 yang dia lakuin nyebelin krn emang ya menyangkut gerilya itu. lah gatau deh ya Allah berilah kesabaran aja deh ya. ya Allah jauhkanlah kl dia mau jahatin aku. dan tolong max berilah aku kesabaran amin

hellooo now im in my second year of senior high school and im in the second term. no longer from now i'll be in my last year of high school. time flies really really fast. i feel like yesterday i was in junior high school and i still got a crush on lindra, enjoying my laziness, and i still can answer 'i dont know i jst still have a long time to think about it' when i ask to myself "what are you gonna be?"
now.. just less than a year, i must choose what am i gonna be.

i wanna be a doctor..
but it just still out of mind. i still cant believe that finally i will choose to be a doctor. i wish i can be accepted. but if im not its no problem, i believe on God i give all to God. i know God knows best.